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I saw this poll and thought it'd be fun to see what kind of an artist yins think I am~
♦ An 'Idol' Artist - You are an artist I look up to, get inspiration from, and sometimes I wish I had your talent.
♦ A 'Normal' Artist - You are a typical, everyday artist who wants to do their best and I have neutral feelings about you as a person.
♦ An 'Invisible' Artist - You're more of an enigma, choosing to upload art and stay off to the sidelines rather than participate too much with your watchers. You can tell you appreciate the attention you get but you're not too 'social'.
♦ An 'Improving' Artist - Your talent is obvious, but it is not perfected. There are many things you can fix about your work, but that doesn't mean you aren't wonderful already.
♦ A 'Compassionate Caring' Artist - You are an artist who does what they can to help other people, even if it means putting down everything you're working on to help someone in need. Your art is great, but your heart is greater.
♦ A 'Whiner-brat' Artist - Your artwork is enjoyable but I strongly dislike and often am at odds with you as a person and your attitude.
♦ A 'Tunnel Vision' Artist - You draw a lot of the same subject matter and rarely divert from it, even when others suggest you should. As enjoyable as your work is your lack of ambition to variate subject matter is off putting whatever talent you ma
♦ A 'People's' Artist - You do what everyone WANTS you to do. You tend to work more on things everyone else wants than what you want to. If the community doesn't like it, neither do you.
♦ A 'Stuck-up' Artist - You have tons of fans yet you have sub-par artwork. You gain tons of attention and you soak it all up but pretend you're humble about it. Although you can be nice, most of the time you're too 'busy' soaking up your popularity
♦ A 'Loveable' Artist - You have lots of loyal fans who came for your art and stayed for your loveable personality.
♦ An 'Idol' Artist - You are an artist I look up to, get inspiration from, and sometimes I wish I had your talent.
♦ A 'Normal' Artist - You are a typical, everyday artist who wants to do their best and I have neutral feelings about you as a person.
♦ An 'Invisible' Artist - You're more of an enigma, choosing to upload art and stay off to the sidelines rather than participate too much with your watchers. You can tell you appreciate the attention you get but you're not too 'social'.
♦ An 'Improving' Artist - Your talent is obvious, but it is not perfected. There are many things you can fix about your work, but that doesn't mean you aren't wonderful already.
♦ A 'Compassionate Caring' Artist - You are an artist who does what they can to help other people, even if it means putting down everything you're working on to help someone in need. Your art is great, but your heart is greater.
♦ A 'Whiner-brat' Artist - Your artwork is enjoyable but I strongly dislike and often am at odds with you as a person and your attitude.
♦ A 'Tunnel Vision' Artist - You draw a lot of the same subject matter and rarely divert from it, even when others suggest you should. As enjoyable as your work is your lack of ambition to variate subject matter is off putting whatever talent you ma
♦ A 'People's' Artist - You do what everyone WANTS you to do. You tend to work more on things everyone else wants than what you want to. If the community doesn't like it, neither do you.
♦ A 'Stuck-up' Artist - You have tons of fans yet you have sub-par artwork. You gain tons of attention and you soak it all up but pretend you're humble about it. Although you can be nice, most of the time you're too 'busy' soaking up your popularity
♦ A 'Loveable' Artist - You have lots of loyal fans who came for your art and stayed for your loveable personality.
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I'm still thankful for all of yins.
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I stumbled upon some old notes from 2005. The year I had to go on hiatus because of an emotional upheaval and because I had started to cut myself. Back when DeviantArt was my central outlet for my creativity. When it was one of the few places that an artist could express themselves. I found the journal that coincided with the precious notes of love and support from my old friends.
Man was I a terrible typist. XD
But an honest one. I couldn't help but to reread several more entries. They're littered with grammar mistakes, little faces, short sentences, little to no sense between each sentence... but honest, happy. I suppose it makes sense. Younger, less mature... I don't like to reveal too much about myself online nowadays, but back then, I'd detail every little nuance. Yet didn't share emotional strife. That hasn't changed, I still struggle with accepting help from others.
What's most interesting to me is seeing these past years and wondering how I would've felt. Like, in 2005, in three years I'd start dating my high school sweetheart again. In five years, I'd be marrying him. In ten years, my circle of friends would have shifted with more tangible ones. That my sorrows would heal, be ripped new again, heal, new stresses would occur, but through the previous pain, I'd be more adapt to handle them.
It's obvious now, but that hiatus started a change in my social life and myself. When I came back a few months later, people, you who still watch me here, were very supportive. But I had started to drift away from the internet, started to have a life outside of this screen.
A bit of melancholy has settled over me, but I look back at the years and am thankful for the friendships I've had. Thankful that we've all changed in some ways, kept some core aspects to ourselves, and have new lives to live. Thank yins so much for supporting me during a transitional time for me. Rereading the comments and the notes made me feel so grateful that I had support then and grateful for the support I have now.
Man was I a terrible typist. XD
But an honest one. I couldn't help but to reread several more entries. They're littered with grammar mistakes, little faces, short sentences, little to no sense between each sentence... but honest, happy. I suppose it makes sense. Younger, less mature... I don't like to reveal too much about myself online nowadays, but back then, I'd detail every little nuance. Yet didn't share emotional strife. That hasn't changed, I still struggle with accepting help from others.
What's most interesting to me is seeing these past years and wondering how I would've felt. Like, in 2005, in three years I'd start dating my high school sweetheart again. In five years, I'd be marrying him. In ten years, my circle of friends would have shifted with more tangible ones. That my sorrows would heal, be ripped new again, heal, new stresses would occur, but through the previous pain, I'd be more adapt to handle them.
It's obvious now, but that hiatus started a change in my social life and myself. When I came back a few months later, people, you who still watch me here, were very supportive. But I had started to drift away from the internet, started to have a life outside of this screen.
A bit of melancholy has settled over me, but I look back at the years and am thankful for the friendships I've had. Thankful that we've all changed in some ways, kept some core aspects to ourselves, and have new lives to live. Thank yins so much for supporting me during a transitional time for me. Rereading the comments and the notes made me feel so grateful that I had support then and grateful for the support I have now.
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*jazz hands*
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I don't really update here anymore, haaha!! But I like to see the people I watch submit art. 
If yins want to interact more with me, I'm *way* more active on Instagram: TinyWingsCraftShop
If yins want to interact more with me, I'm *way* more active on Instagram: TinyWingsCraftShop
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Regretful Bridge Burner
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Lately my depression's been worse. I lay in bed, thinking of past decisions or daydreams or just let my imagination loose and flow along lazily with it.
I'm a bridge burner. I want to be able to rekindle those bridges, but I feel as if I've burned them to a crisp. I have a huge regret over a particular bridge. If only I hadn't acted to rash. If only I had given myself some time to cool off, not react immediately and with heated passion. Perhaps try to help the other person understand my view, rather than just go "it's causing me stress, should cut it". Perhaps we'd still be talking, creating together. Perhaps both of us would be wiser.
I'm also chicken shit. I could e-mail her, apologize or simply ask for us to try again. But I won't. I'll just make this journal entry, pining over the could've-beens, unable to actually make a move forward. Thinking she might see it. I wouldn't blame her if she felt angry. "YOU'RE NOT THE VICTIM!" she might say. But I feel that we are both to blame and both to feel such hurt. It was a two-way street, but ultimately, I was the one who ended it.
I'm a bridge burner. I want to be able to rekindle those bridges, but I feel as if I've burned them to a crisp. I have a huge regret over a particular bridge. If only I hadn't acted to rash. If only I had given myself some time to cool off, not react immediately and with heated passion. Perhaps try to help the other person understand my view, rather than just go "it's causing me stress, should cut it". Perhaps we'd still be talking, creating together. Perhaps both of us would be wiser.
I'm also chicken shit. I could e-mail her, apologize or simply ask for us to try again. But I won't. I'll just make this journal entry, pining over the could've-beens, unable to actually make a move forward. Thinking she might see it. I wouldn't blame her if she felt angry. "YOU'RE NOT THE VICTIM!" she might say. But I feel that we are both to blame and both to feel such hurt. It was a two-way street, but ultimately, I was the one who ended it.
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Time to werk!
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About to leave for the workin' day, huzzah! Christmas season isn't all that bad... the bad parts are THE NEVER ENDING CYCLE OF CHRISTMAS MUSIC MAKE IT STOP PLEAAAAAAAASE MAKE IT STOOOOOOOOP *cries in a corner*
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